The moment has come to quit smoking.....

I ran out of smokes last night, that coupled with the lack of income due to my poor performance with the business earlier this year has led me to decide to quit smoking as of today.

Don't get me wrong I will miss my little buddies alot, but definitely wont miss the way they make me feel in the morning or the breathlessness after the tiniest bit of physical exertion. Besides, since giving up the grog I have become determined to become 100% clean for the first time since puberty. Actually, before puberty I have smoked since I was 11.

I have quit several times before in my life with varying degrees of success lasting from days, months and once I even went 2 years. I really hope I am strong enough to make it last this time.
Actually I know I am strong enough, we all are. It is just that we take the easy way out when we have a craving sometimes. Note to self: Harden the fuck up.

Part of me really doesn't want to stop smoking. Like it was with the grog I fear that I will not have my little companion to have with me when I get bored, stressed or whatever else it is leads us to our habits.... Seriously, I just looked out of the window earlier and thought about smoking ond my mind raced a little bit thinking "Oh, Oh, ummm, what do I do now?". However, I know this is pretty normal behaviour for someone who is giving up something. The same sort of behaviour that gives people the reluctance to quit or failure to quit within the first day.
(see note to self again Mr A)

As mentioned in my last post, I want to get fit as well so I have seized the opportunity of stopping the cigarettes and started going for walks again this morning as I am sick of the fat on my belly from the years of drinking and I'll be stuffed if I am going to put any more weight on just because I quit smoking. (I used to go for 1 hour every morning 2 years ago. 4 years ago I would walk over 14 kilometres a day). I was fit and toned once (despite being an alcoholic) and really wish to get back that way again. I am 6' 1" and 5 years ago I was 92kg with good muscle tone. Today I am around 115kg, having dropped about 5kg over the last 6 or so weeks off the grog. Unfortunately my arms have 1/2 the muscle they did 5 years ago too. That said, my weight isnt all grog related, I did work my previous company to he point I was required in an office all day and my new business requires the same. Exercise does not come with work any more so it has become less likely to get done and lazy routines are very easy to slip into.

Lets change that shall we;)