Well, sorry about yesterdays rant.

We had the guests over as planned, all the adults drinking drinking drinking. Sure, I felt like one at times (most of the night), but got through it quite well.

The worst part of the night was the 8 yes, 8 children/teenagers. With me being the only sober one, I found myself either worrying about their safety (especially my young ones) or answering/listening to the the 100,000 questions/statements per minute that they are capable of. I also found out hat ipods suck, and I never should have promised my mates daughter that I would download some songs and put them to her ipod for her when they came around (they dont have internet at home). Picture this: Drunken gathering of adults outside, man (me) inside with about 6 kids hovering over shoulder downloading songs for a 12 year old girl.

Downloading Justin Timberlake and a whole heap of other mushy songs that I cant handle, converting files to stupid fucking itunes and having 6 kids barking in my ear every second whilst the others were running amok elsewhere in my little house AND trying to stay sober with my freinds outside having enjoying a drink was my hardest test yet.

I PASSED:)
and am proud of it.

My freinds were good, no one pushed a drink in my face or even offered. I was a little quiet at time, but I think most knew that I was a little on edge that evening, but in the end all cool. Great to see my wife let her hair down and enjoy some gossip amongst her freinds too. She can drink anytime she wants and knows this, but she wanted to back off having 1 or 2 a day herself I think. I still have a heap of wine in the fridge and cupboard which she is welcome to drink, unfortunately she doesnt like any of them. (Between you and me I think she has poor taste in wine)

Nice and sober today as well, done heaps of fishing (we live on the water) with the kids and freinds that stayed over, read a bit of a nice novel I am reading at the moment and the backyard is all cleaned up along with the house.

I must admit though as much as I regret pouring so much grog down my throat over the years to the point it was starting to kill me. I was kind of proud to overhear one of my mates talking to one of the teenage boys (nearly 17) about life and choices. He used me as an example of how alcohol can start to rule some people (that is not the pride bit, that just bought up regretful feelings) EMO! The pride was when I heard him mention himself and a few really large drinkers we know and tell the kid that 1 month ago I could have drunk them all under the table and continued to have a sensible conversation with the next person that came along. Some would say it is nothing to be proud of, and it isnt. I was just proud to hear that I had confirmation that I was never a messy, loud or obnoxious drunk. I WAS FUCKING SUPERMAN! ;)


In summary, there has been stress, there have been hurdles to jump but in the end I am glad to be sober today. I am looking forward to a sober future. Just got to keep myself occupied for now;) This evinings choice of distraction shall be cooking some Russian Food for the children (dont know if I mentioned this before, but every time the kids come over one of them blindly picks a spot on a map of the world and I cook them food from that country) Tonights dish Piroshki with a nice Eggplant Thing as a side. Cooking is something I have always enjoyed, runs in the family. Same with my wifey. Kids are blessed to have us as parents / step parents I tell ya!





If you have been read this blog or been following it. Thanks for putting up with ups and downs of my rants. I feel stability is in the not too distant future:)
well, as stable as us humans get anyway;)